It's October 23rd and I've written 38,500 words of my book so far (: I just have around 11,500 to gooooo -- I'm struggling a bit (due to problems discussed below), but I'll get it all done by the 31st for sure <33 I MUST.
IN other news -- I'm having some emotional problems.
Some issues with anxiety and depression have been hounding on me the last couple weeks which have been creatively draining me. It's so bad there are days I don't want to do ANYTHING which only ends up upsetting me more... So please pray for me. I want to love drawing again... I want it SO BAD. But right now it's so hard for me. I hate everything I do. My inspiration is lost and I am having SO MUCH trouble getting it back. I've been having a lot of frustrated, tear-filled nights, and I'm sick of it... SO bare with me if you don't see much art until I get past this funk.
I don't know what to do... I want to draw BUT I can't. Which makes me then want to crawl into bed and give up. And I hate that feeling.
SO please pray for me <33 thank you Iloveyouguys
Not sure what else to say ;w; BUT I hope all of you guys are doing well <333END OF UPDATE
I'm about to head to bed - BUT I wanted to let you guys all know about this first! I posted this on my Facebook 7 hours ago --
I guess I'll post something here about this (even though I'm pretty good at ignoring FB most of the time haha) BUT today I've started my journey into serious novel writing. I have so many stories and ideas in my head, it's about time I stop lying around and thinking about getting to work. So after nearly a year of reading and preparing myself I'm jumping into this no matter how scary it is. I've set the bar high for myself to get my butt in gear. Instead of one novel in one month for nanowrimo - I'm starting a month early. I plan to get two novel rough drafts done in two months. I know I'm crazy, but I need to get my ideas down even if it happens to be a big mess - at least I'll have material to play with in the coming year when I transition to rewriting! SO now you'll all know why I'm posting loopy status' over the next couple months if it so happens. (Because it could, if I start to lose some of my sanity lol) So any prayers, support, and encouragement is welcome! You can also scare me a bit, because it's easy to procrastinate especially when you have to stick to your own personal deadline. Meanwhile, I will still be working, babysitting, writing for an up-and-coming comic I'm starting with my bestie Amelia, and fitting in plenty of art as much as I possibly can!
Thanks for reading guys ~~ haha I'm pretty scared right now, but I'm also super excited and determined!
So yes. Those are my plans and now you guys all know as well! If you are a writer and want to try out this double-challenge as well -- feel free BUT you don't have to. You can always wait to join me in November for nano <33 haha! I'm actually using the creator of nanowrimo's book "No plot? No problem!" to get me through this. He released an updated version Sept 16 8D (go get it! It's awesome!!)
My more detailed plans are this -- October- I'll be writing the rough draft for Jude & Robin's novel ((which has changed A LOT since I first started playing with it)) and November-- I'll be working on Hope Behind Struggle!! 8D You will probably not see a lot of writing on these (unless you are a writing buddy who offered to help me out) - BUT you will most likely see random art ~~~
So yeah. It's happening.
I'm about to get lost in fictional worlds for the next 60 days. You've been warned ;D
(Writing buddies - if you want more details on my plan- shoot me a note~)